Monday, October 20, 2008. I get excited at the idea of new friends. But every day I worry about being let down - or get aggrivated with - someone. I get annoyed too easily and I feel that I myself am annoying - there I find a contradiction in my actions. I hate that about me. So what do I do? Continue putting up with things that stress me out even further? Monday, October 13, 2008.

This is the back of the envelope. Saturday, February 28, 2015. Of Summer, Home and Holi. Blame it on the last day of February. Or on my significant other, who mentioned the Flame of the Forest as he spoke to me from a train from Ranchi to Jamshedpur this morning. On the way the sunlight dapples the freshly-laundered linen that I hung to dry an hour ago. On the impossible combination of exhilaration and mild panic that still. That everything is imbued with.